Sarah B Aka Steve <sadlifeofme>


What Life?
I used to have faith
in people in God in stuff
There were several persons who I actually cared for...
there were exactly eight
only two remain but will soon be just one.
I try to be optimistic
but it's not easy
after watching the important people in your life walk away.
I'm trying to hang on...
to have faith again
but support is low
and so is my self-esteem...
is that really life...

* * *

I saw a girl the other day;
she looked very sad.
Her face was drawn and pale,
her eyes were red and puffy from many tears.
There were still tears in her eyes yet unshed as I stared.
Her cheeks were hollow and colorless,
she was nothing special to look at.
In her eyes was the look of loneliness,
the absence of passion.
At the instant I saw it,
the sadness was gone;
in its place:
cold acceptance.
I wanted to tell her the sorrow wouldn't last,
but when I stretched out my hand,
only my reflection reached back

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Member Since
February 2006

Sarah B Aka Steve says:

"I feel kinda crappy " (71 weeks ago) me too!

Music
Andrew W.K. 12 Stones Belle and Sebastian Elliot Minor All American Rejects Tenacious D Three Days Grace Bowling For Soup 3 Doors Down 30 Seconds To Mars 311 A Perfect Circle Acceptance Story Of The Year AFI Michael Jackson (sad i know) The Killers OK GO Maroon 5 Lenny Kravitz Madness UB40 Bad Manners Tool Queen Chevelle Counting Crows Bon Jovi Avril Lavigne Trapt Van Halen Greenday Franz Ferdinand Seether Smile Empty Soul Billy Talent Black Stone Cherry Buck Cherry Audioslave Kaiser Cheifs Embrace Snow Patrol Coldplay Orson Blink 182 Breaking Benjamin ELO Finger Eleven Kasabian Muse Avenged Sevenfold Something Corporate Sum 41 Taking Back Sunday Sixpence None The Richer Good Charlotte Bush Fall Out Boy My Chemical Romance Panic At The Disco Bullets and Octane Bullet for my Valentine Bad Company Bad English Matchbox 20 Lost Prophets Incubus Interpol The Mrs Volta No Mercy Yellowcard Gods
Sports
wel sum sports i lyk 2 watch r: NFL, UFC, Winter Sports, footy liverpool rwk!! sum uva football wen ders nufin betta 2 do lol, & Speedway rock on Poole Pirates!!!!! i dnt reali do that much sporty stuff but i lyk goin out cyclin n walkin tramopolinin
Scared Of
im actually scored of quite a lot of fing the main 1s bein: any kind of insects, reptiles or amphibians, my front door!! n dis 1's kinda embarrassin; im also scared of the dark & thunder n lightnin aaarrrggghhh!!! oh yh n dis orrible freaky lil penguin biscuit fing!!!! lol dnt ask u gotta c it 1st den y'll undastand lol ... erm scared of failure ... n i do have anuva phobia but dats not 4 ere lol dnt wnt 2 offend ne1
Happiest When
i aint neva appy lol nah appiest wen wiv my m8s oo r jus da bestest eva lol n my music of course cnt live wivout it !!!
fings i lurv
wel der is di 1 spesh person but i'll keep dat 1 2 myself 4 now lol wel yh n uva den dat iv gotta say tis moosic moosic n more moosic lol erm ... two pints of lager and a packet of crisps ... Russell Brand ... Loose Women ... Jane McDonald!! :)

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  • I quietly weep
    my dry tears...
    the fluids in
    my body
    no longer able
    to support
    my leaking orbs...
    scorching sands
    sting my flesh
    as the time
    lazily shuffles
    along
    teasing me
    and my view
    that life
    is just one
    long, depressing
    Chore
    that I'd rather
    not have been
    assigned...
    I gaze skyward
    not to admire
    that careless fireball,
    which secretly delights
    in frying my retina,
    but to blink away
    the fresh salt-water
    collections
    that have slowly
    regained mass
    in my unseeing eyes...
    I clamp down
    my lids,
    forcing myself
    to ignore
    the descent of
    my tears...
    though my mind
    wanders aimlessly
    through the horribly negative
    aspects of my existence,
    a single thought
    sticks to my concentration
    like some bloodthirsty
    tick,
    clinging to a meal...
    even if my life's
    termination is
    achieved by my own
    wretched hands,
    what punishment
    inflicted beyond
    the grave
    could compare
    with the Personal Hell
    my tortured soul
    has painstakingly
    learned
    to love... and to hate...

    3 Comments 979 days

  • So here I am, sitting
    Alone in the dark again
    What a perfect f*ckin metaphor
    I'm so tired of this
    I know I have no reason to feel this pain but
    Of course I can't stop it now

    It's nights like this when
    I don't want to hear solutions
    And my dreams just tease me
    With promises of a better tomorrow
    That isn't today yet
    And patience isn't one of my virtues

    What, you mean this isn't normal for me?
    Either I'm damn good at hiding this or
    I spend a lot more time than I like to think
    Lost in my head

    1 Comment 979 days

  • You take it, and you take it
    And you learn,
    You learn all too well,
    So that later, when there's nobody to dish it out,
    You can punch yourself in the gut
    And take it some more.

    The best part is,
    With training and practice,
    You learn your own soft spots and weaknesses,
    So that you become your own best tormentor.

    Double up over the pain and swallow.
    It'll still be there tomorrow,
    Waiting for you.

    0 Comments 979 days

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    32 weeks ago
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    32 weeks ago
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    38 weeks ago
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    43 weeks ago
  • X.William.Xs.O.Vs X.William.Xs.O.Vs

    heya
    It ok no worries im sure uve been busy
    LOL i was properbly on break thank u
    Yer im fine hankswat bout u
    Have a gd day 2day
    btw my phone was stolen o dats y i ait txt u
    w.b
    will
    xxxx

    46 weeks ago
  • X.William.Xs.O.Vs X.William.Xs.O.Vs

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    w,.b
    love will

    51 weeks ago
  • X.William.Xs.O.Vs X.William.Xs.O.Vs

    Nothing really...... how are you feeling any better?
    Wat are you up 2 dis weekend?
    Are you free wednesday:)
    w.b
    will

    51 weeks ago
  • X.William.Xs.O.Vs X.William.Xs.O.Vs

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    yer ok will be gd
    lol

    52 weeks ago
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    hey hey hey happy birthday
    wow 18 :)
    have a gd day xx

    64 weeks ago
  • Anne - Marie HeartsTom Anne - Marie HeartsTom

    hey

    ahh dont say that
    oo how was your results ???

    oo dwn the pub i hope im gettin an invite
    :P

    wb xxx

    67 weeks ago
  • Anne - Marie HeartsTom Anne - Marie HeartsTom

    hey hey hey
    i no its been a long time
    but its not that long now untill we have to go bk to 6th form :(

    im gd ta and ya self u still workin ??

    nah anit been up 2 nuch just makin good use of the sun lol yeah right

    how bout u ? bin up 2 much ??

    not long now till ya 18th :) wot we doin for it ??

    we xxx

    67 weeks ago
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    xxxLeannexxx

    67 weeks ago
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    I got a job interview tomoro which is kool!
    wat results did u get?
    xxxLeannexxx

    67 weeks ago
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    u gta arrange sumin. u cant do nuthin 4 yer 18th!

    xxx

    68 weeks ago
  • Linzi Bbz Linzi Bbz

    no-1 compares 2 me!! =]
    yyyyeaah you doin anythin for yer bdaaay?
    its sunnnnaaay :D
    what days do you work theeen?

    xxxx

    68 weeks ago